Ever had a couple of those months where Life just wont let you go?

I am embedded on the front lines of a fierce firefight with Life. Explosions are coming unerringly closer, adrenalin is pumping through my system, I have responded decisively and courageously…and yet, behind the deafening narrative of my discursive, chattering mind, is peace and acceptance. It’s a hard place to drop into, but it’s there as I let go and trust that its all going to be as it should, no matter the outcome. Surrender is not defeat.